why?

Why why why??? the only boy I've ever felt like I had a future with, the only boy I loved in my entire life more than puppy love... leaves me for a bitch you gets everything she wants shes taken girls and shes taken boys and shes broken his heart. I know I told him to do it now because it was my last hope that maybe he really loved me back like he lied that he did.. I'll never fall for anyone the same way and I hope he knows that even if I dont want to I love him and I always will and there is no way on earth I'm ever kissing, dating or thinking of anyone else. I just want him to be happy but its hard not to want her to just break him like he broke me.. I dont want to see them together... EVER. I want to see him because I need to hug him at least.. he was the only person who could make me happy and now i dont what im going to do. Maybe mum is right and hes just a crutch holding me up from the pain of my life but well see, because when I finally leave here if I still love him then I guess not.. I hope one day he loves me back and I can be happy, I cant believe that this happened Im a lesbian other than him and I dont even want girls!! I dont want him to know how crushed i am but i want him to at the same time.. I hope he never marries her, i hope he never touches her and if they do get married I hope Im far away by that time.. I could never watch that and not stop breathing.. I hate ppl having power over me but he has every power over me, I hate it when hes sad i just want him to be happy...