If you really knew me...

I'm watching the show If you really knew me and so I decided to make a blog about if you really knew me. If you really knew me you would know I dont care who you are or what you are but I love and hate you just like I love and hate the world. I'm loving but you may not know that because I can be really mean because its what people want, If you really knew me you would know that I'm bipolar and my brothers always tell me I only say that for attention and its not like that and my brothers abuse me and assualt me daily but my parents don't do anything to stop them. My family hurts my confidence and don't care, if you really knew me you would know I would only feel anythihng if my mom died and I would be mad at her for leaving me with my father and my brothers and if I was left with them I know I would kill myself... If you really knew me you would know I'm not a confident and happy as I pretend to be, I hate myself and my family, I wish my life were different but it's not... It's really hard for me to be happy there are only a few people I know who make me 100% happier those people are Jeremiah Kima, Haili Noyes, and Jon... thats some things you would know if you really knew me.