I can't believe I'm alone again, am going to try to O.D. again? I have enough meds to easily do so on... Am i going to kill his next girlfriend? No... But hell yes ill want to. Am i gonna be lez? if i ever touch another human loveingly again, probably it will be a woman, yes... I loved him so much and I didn't even know until after he took my heart and shattered it into pieces so small that I can't even tell that they're there. My insides feel as if they're shattered glass melted down into a liqud so light that its not even there. I hate this feeling and it's there. I've already lost my best friend, why do i have to go through this again, this is so much worse than when clayton killed himself.. because I dont want to die becasue he's still alive and I can still see him, he's still breathing... I love...ed him I wish i could just say how I feel but i cant becasue I don't think he'd care.
Wishin life was easy,
Bitchy lil' fuck,
Kelsi H.
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