Can't sleep

well I can never sleep but tonight I'm bored too!ugh so I have a question and post pictures and anwsers and stuffs plwzzz?? (1) What style should I get my hair done?
(2) What pericings should I get? I want either two sidebyside lip rings or snake bites and abunch of other stuff (3) what color(s) should I dye my hair?

I don't pretend that I'm cool I know im a loser

It's just who I am and I'm cool with that thank you vewry much meh loves **PEACE**

again I have figured out myself! alil bit

I'm Bisexual; Asexual (no sexual attraction/desire); Christian (again but I just don't like the way the church makes god and jesus sound so judgemental when they're not); Vegetarian; animal lover; freak!; and a bunch of other stuff but I figured out the Christian thing!

Memorial Day Ritual

Otay so tell me if this is competely crazy cuz someone called me weird becasue of this today I mean yea I'm weird but its mean to say that just becasue of the way I celebrate memorial day. Okay so I go sit at the church and sing I've done that almost everyday for 3 years so since I was 10 and I've done this memorial day thing since I was 7 I mean I've lived here my whole entire life. So I sit at the church and sing my hippie songs (1) then I walk up to the cemetary (2) and I walk around mumbling a prayer thanking the lost souls for helping to give life by leaving theirs behind them and it's like a 30 minute prayer and then I finish the prayer and keep walking around the cemetary giving whatever I have to give that year normally its flowers or something but this year it was a wish of peace and love and a thanks of recycling their bodies, spirits, and minds for the souls that have not yet left the unknown world of beyond. (3) and I do this all barefoot I mean I walk around barefoot a lot and some people think it's rude for me to walk on the graves barefoot but isn't it worse to walk over them in shoes? besides I thank them for giving their bodies back to the earth and the people and animals of earth so why would they mind if I treat them as greatly as I treat the earth that I know nothing other than, it's a closeness thing to me (4) I leave the cemetary when I'm finished wishing the dead peace and thanking them all again for their gift and then I thank jesus and god and the spirit of the world for the gift of life (5) I honestly see no problem with this but I guess some people do. this is who I am and I'm sorry if you don't like it but I refuse to change for others
**PEACE**

Secret life of a Veg-head

otay so I've been a vegaterian for about 4 months now and it's been difficult and I've had a few slip ups :( I probably wouldn't have if it wasn't a secret but whenever I tell my 'rents I wanna be a vegaterian they just laugh it off this being because I live in Hatley... Wisconsin with a bunch of hunters in a family that was brought together because of hunting and fishing; my mom is okay with me being Bi but not vegaterian she's always like "anything but that" and so its a secret and it's difficult because my family thinks I'm crazy I'm rarely hungry in the first place but I refuse to eat anything meat and they think im insane and it's kind of funny see I went from no red meat (bad) to only eating meat from animals that are only breed to become food that are not red meat (baddd) to not eating any meat at all... (BAD) haha it's weird having to hide something like that but I do because I wouldn't be a Holdridge apparently if I didnt like to kill and eat things... oh well I'll tell 'em sometime when Ima just leave anyways

(passive much? uh ya)

**love and peace to you**

**PEACE**

Extra-ordinary chance

It's really ordinary to us to have life because we already have it it's normal it's average but think about it even those with sickness physically and/or mentally like me were givin a chance at something so amazing that we don't even know anything else we can't even think about life without life it's immpossible to us and therefore we must all know what we have right here is extraordinary and we can't even comprehed what really gave this gift to us or who/what can take it away and we can't figure out what really happens outside of our world in the world where the souls of those lost and those to come roam.

Peace,
Kelsey Holdridge

Make love not war

The Past and Love is Our Weapon and sacrilegious are some of my favorite NevershoutNever songs because I relate to them. I have a question, Why is it wrong to be gay, or lesbian, or Bisexual or anything, how is that wrong that's like saying it's wrong to be black or white! Everyone is just a person everyone deserves love from all people. We have to love eachother or the human race will die out in 2012 but it has nothing to do with the end of the world it has to do with humans fighting and killing eachother because we're different from eachother but isn't that something to be celebrated?? Why can't we listen to the Hippies of the past generations? Make love not war!

Peace,
Kelsey

BARMITZVAH DRESS

BARMITZVAH DRESS:

Zachary Robert Bluestein

Zachary you are one of my few best friends, you may be a bitch regularly to me but you mean well and you're honest maybe too honest but Honesty is a lost quality so I'm proud of you for being yourself and for of course being there for me when my ex girlfriend and your current girlfriend is a bitch to me and thanks for the offer of a threesome but no thankies haha I love you! you're my Bffl I guess lol I can't believe you say bffl.

Love ya darlins,

Kelly Jane

Jane Doe - NeverShoutNever

Jane Doe is a song by NeverShoutNever and I heard it for the first time today cuz I bought the CD What is love? I love every single song but this one, I love it but I'm not 100% sure who/what it's about hahaha. I would be Chris's Jane Doe lol cuz he seems soo sweet! lol but I don't know him so actually I'd much rather know him first!

Love ya my minions
(surprised ppl actually read my thoughts)
Kelsey Jane Holdridge!!!

MEH!!!!

Ima be a big scary fucking snake!

hahaha!! Im so fucking lonely but bitches that's cool! Sssoooo... whats up pplz??? I'm bored and I have nothing to talk about but I wish I did! I guess I'm just confused,, I like Miah!!??! I can't like Miah hes like one of my bestest friend!! GAHH! and then Jon and Riley are not being helpful on the subject of love lately and there is this new kid, David. DeathNote as some people may know him by anyways he's cute and I like his views but he randomlly stops txting me back and thats pissing meh off then of course I still pretty Much love Riley although she went all preppy which is so not my thing! Im so freaking confused! I got sunburnt today like reall bad, hopr it doesnt make my constantly being sick worse cuz dat would be baddd! omg school is almost over and instead of being an 8th grader I'll probably be a freshman wif all my real frwends so yayzz! Miah >>>

Okay well RObert is scaring me first off he dumped me and now hes pretty much stalking me telling me he's gonna kill himself and its his fault im the way I am and all that shit and it's scary lol you guys should see the note he sent me the day after he dumped me asking me to take him back when he knows thats not how I work besides I do like Alex (my ex) again but he has a new girlfriend although its fact he likes me back but there is a new varible and someone I'm actually physically attracted too as well as emotional and being Asexual thats weird so maybe im not completely Asexual but I still pretty much am but anyways His name is Jeremiah but I call him Miah and I dont know if he likes me back but I know I like him he may be 16 and from B.C. but he's got some innocent qualities as well as the mature immaturity of normal people. He's so sweet though... I'm so confused about what to do but I think I might figure it out at some point lol

Alex!!!

My Ex boyfriend Alex, he's 17 and he drives me places but also I didn't know how much I missed him and I def. still love him. But he has a Girlfriend now, god damn him but we were in his car yesterday and I knew he still loved me too but we kissed and I cant not think about him again and It sucks but I love it anyway!

Meh misses my mon shu shu

I can't believe I'm alone again, am going to try to O.D. again? I have enough meds to easily do so on... Am i going to kill his next girlfriend? No... But hell yes ill want to. Am i gonna be lez? if i ever touch another human loveingly again, probably it will be a woman, yes... I loved him so much and I didn't even know until after he took my heart and shattered it into pieces so small that I can't even tell that they're there. My insides feel as if they're shattered glass melted down into a liqud so light that its not even there. I hate this feeling and it's there. I've already lost my best friend, why do i have to go through this again, this is so much worse than when clayton killed himself.. because I dont want to die becasue he's still alive and I can still see him, he's still breathing... I love...ed him I wish i could just say how I feel but i cant becasue I don't think he'd care.

Wishin life was easy,
Bitchy lil' fuck,
Kelsi H.

Heartbroken

**crying** Why the fuck did he dump me? what did i do and why is he telling me he still loves me if he dumped me? He's such a lying asshole he just wanted sex and im so fucking glad he didnt get it. I miss him and i really dont want to heart broken again....

GRADUATE!!!

I a grad-u-ate-ed from thearapies!!x2 physical and the one for crazies! ha! I win! but they didnt anwser any of my questions oh well. My bro's court apperance numbero un #1 is 2maro and hopefully he's coming home but we dont know from there and then zach's court thingy is tuesday and I forgot what was wednesday but there is sum'ing lol!