from now on until im out of wisconsin i just want to be done with feelings. I hate everyone except Haley and Haili right now or i dont care about them, I really hate emotions again, pain is envitable, which sucks, I'm going to take things in a different way for awhile maybe ill get prepy or maybe ill do what id rather do and just kill myself, I really honestly dont care because even if he makes me hate everything I still honestly think I love him, but this feeling obviously isnt mutual and just makes things harder for me I would kill myself faster without him so for that, "Thank you Jon, for helping me stay alive"