Well hello there once again

I haven't posted since Jeremiah broke my heart well I got pretty much raped the second time not fun but i dated him afterwards so i felt less like it wasnt my decision. I'm with Evan now, have been for 4 months tomorrow, he makes me feel better about myself than Miahs did. I still love miahs but Evan is so perfect for me. he isn't pressurey he's... everything seriously so I must catch you up with some pictures soon. I might see Miahs soon, I think Evan hates me right now, it's my fault, I started liking Seth he made me feel like Evan really didn't love me and he did but I figured out he's an ass and I hate him with a burning passion, I cried forever last night until about 2 maybe 3 this morning when i finally fell asleep. Michael is amazing we both cried all night and covered our faces with tons of makeup. It's hard to catch you up but just Evan is perfect and too good for me, he doesn't like promises so I'm telling him but i promise to myself to make this work as long as humanly possible. hopefully, a year at least. i might try out for color guard, because the gymnastics team got cut gahhh.
**kisses** Kelsey Jane

Jeremiah breaks hearts everyday

Okay.. so I knew this was coming for maybe the past month or two.... I didn't want to believe it... but it happened the boy I can't see not being the person I loose my virginity to, broke my heart for a second time.. I'm not crying as much as the last.. but it hurts like hell.. I hope Rebecca is happy with herself...

Happy but Im worried and its weird

I've been in a really good mood and Im so happy I have Miahs ^ ^ he makes me so happy and just lets me be retarded. I am a little sad because, well Jeremiah's family is getting evicted so he hasn't been on as much and wont be on for a little bit. that makes me sad, but I know he loves me and that makes it better. I'm not going to go into how Rebecca keeps trying to make everyone hate me because I know Miahs still cares about her and stuffs and I respect that. Today was Riley's last day, she's getting homeschooled for the rest of the school year so yea.. my one friend protecting me from Jon H., Marti, Rebecca and the rest of that group is now gone.. so yea I dont know how that all is going to work. But... I always have Jeremiah and I know he's there for me even if we disagree on somethings **hearts**

Homecoming

I met Haili's boyfriend Mr. Kitten yesterday, I dont think he liked me : ( oh well I guesses

then I was forced to stay at Hayley's house with Chelsea

Hayley's mom made fun of my unique accent

hah who doesnt

even my "husband" says it makes me sound like a boy

(which is mean)

then today my brothers got all dressed up nice for the dance

I got asked by a few people

but I turned them down

because Im "married"

and I only want to dance with Miahs

but.. I can't take anyone to any dance when the get older than 20

my mom needs to meet him too

it's really funny my family

I love Jeremiah

I hope he never leaves me..

I try so hard to make it work every moment of my life

He's just too perfect

Ick

So I'm going to this party for my ex girlfriend/ ex bestfriend.. its for her birthday and we're still friends but she went from like goth/emo to preppy beyond belief so all of her new friends kind of hate me and its really weird... so Im supposed to stay over all of the girls are tonight but Maggie and Marti hate me, Stashia doesnt know me.. and well the other girls are all preps or druggies like my brother and I quit smoking cigs and pot at the end of last year because I met Miah and I quit for him but if they smoke tonight I dont know what the hell Ill do... Im really anxious and not looking forward to tonight what-so-ever >< Ill miss Miahs and I dont even know if Im going to stay, depends if I have fun with the chicks too or just the guys (if just the guys Ill leave when they do) So joy and pray to who/whatever you pray to for me please?

love and cupcakes,
Kelsey Jane Holdridge ^ ^

this is where i live

heh

hehe Im in love, all is well ^_^